I have to surrender it all.....everything I am, everything I am going through at this moment in my life, to Jesus. I face a scary road right now. A road of uncertainty. My beloved, my husband, has been found to be unfaithful to me yet again. I am faced with many decisions with a brain and heart that is filled to capacity with hurt. And yet, I am a mother. I have children who are devastated at the fact that the man they have looked at as the fulcrum of falling and beautiful repentance and picking yourself back up has fallen yet again. They are young adults and there is nothing I can hide from them this time. They demand answers for themselves. They have their own voices.
I can sit at the cross and ask them to join me. I can pray over them and their father and reach out to others and ask for prayer over me for wisdom and strength. I do not ever wish to tear him down. With that said, there are grave consequences to repetitive sin. I am tired. I am weary. And I am going to surrender it all once again to my Jesus who has paid for it all.
Lord, will you draw this man unto Yourself and give him rest from his striving of not knowing his self worth in You. Will you take my daughter's hand and guide her. She is feeling lost in a way that I don't understand. Wrap Yourself around her and give her peace. Would You shelter my son under the shadow of Your wings? Help him to cope. Help him to separate sin from sinner. Help us all with that. Lord, I pray for the two women involved in this. I pray over their families. Protect them. Help us to bite our tongues and demonstrate restraint. Please give me the strength, Jesus, to lead my children in ways that would bring You glory. Amen.



























