I have to surrender it all.....everything I am, everything I am going through at this moment in my life, to Jesus. I face a scary road right now. A road of uncertainty. My beloved, my husband, has been found to be unfaithful to me yet again. I am faced with many decisions with a brain and heart that is filled to capacity with hurt. And yet, I am a mother. I have children who are devastated at the fact that the man they have looked at as the fulcrum of falling and beautiful repentance and picking yourself back up has fallen yet again. They are young adults and there is nothing I can hide from them this time. They demand answers for themselves. They have their own voices.
I can sit at the cross and ask them to join me. I can pray over them and their father and reach out to others and ask for prayer over me for wisdom and strength. I do not ever wish to tear him down. With that said, there are grave consequences to repetitive sin. I am tired. I am weary. And I am going to surrender it all once again to my Jesus who has paid for it all.
Lord, will you draw this man unto Yourself and give him rest from his striving of not knowing his self worth in You. Will you take my daughter's hand and guide her. She is feeling lost in a way that I don't understand. Wrap Yourself around her and give her peace. Would You shelter my son under the shadow of Your wings? Help him to cope. Help him to separate sin from sinner. Help us all with that. Lord, I pray for the two women involved in this. I pray over their families. Protect them. Help us to bite our tongues and demonstrate restraint. Please give me the strength, Jesus, to lead my children in ways that would bring You glory. Amen.
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26 comments:
Thinking of you, praying for you and the whole family. Wishing you comfort and peace. I am so sorry for...EVERYBODY. Nobody gets out of this without pain and consequences. I know you WILL survive this Deb and somehow God's plan will unfold...all that keeps coming to me is the phrase " The God that never betrays"...
Sweetie, I am beyond sorry. My heart hurts for you, and your children. You have my love and prayers.
Hi Debra.
I want to tell you that I think you are such a brave woman for posting this. That is totally the Lord, I believe. I don't know what to say, except that I will also be praying for you, your husband, your family, and the two other women.
I'm so sorry you're hurting, my friend.
Love,
Alicia
Oh Debra, You have no idea how my hearts for you right now. I'm emailing you shortly.
LOVE YOU!
Oh my. I am so very very sorry sweet sister. Know my prayers are with you. I like your new look...such a petty thing that I am sure you do not care about now, but...
Jesus-
My words cannot intercede. Holy Spirit please pray for me and give Debra all she needs. Amen.
Praying for you and asking God to hold you all
Love
Bethany
Oh sweet Debra. i will be praying for you and your family. This song is beautiful. May we all always surrender everything to Him.
Hugs,
Mimi
OH my sweet friend, I'm so sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you. I will be covering you in prayers. May the Lord be with you and comfort you during this difficult time. May He give you direction and show you the way. May He bring healing to you and your family. Know that you are loved my dear friend!
I have NO words only a heart of open wounds and a face full of tears down my face. Dear friend, I WILL be in prayers and be a shoulder or an email away for you. You are strong. You are loved. You are not alone. I will listen. I will love. I will PRAY!
Oh my Debra, I love you so much and my heart aches for you all, your family and all who are involved. My heart aches at the utter lostness of a soul that would do this over again...
You know Mike and I are in prayer for you all, we love you!
Oh Debra! I am so sorry to read this post today! This saddens me a great deal. I am without words right now, but know that I will be praying for you and your precious family.
Blessings my sweet Debra... My mouth is open in complete awe as I read your words and heard your heart! I just can't believe it.
Had I not the advantage of reading the previous comments, I would have asked, really? I see so much of JESUS in you and I'm so glad that you chose to publicly share this, as if you don't already have enough to deal with but God is greater than any difficulty and He has a plan & even a purpose in this. My heart aches...with you and your family. My heart aches for him. My head is so angry but then we must release all from the chains that bind us. I weary with you. I grieve with you the loss once again. I pray for Godly wisdom and heart.
Father, Take all that my sweet sister Debra is bearing right now and surrendering and bring her peace, wisdom a sound mind and comfort as she makes heavy choices and decisions and explanations. Be with each one involved! Please watch over my precious Debra and give her Your strength. Bless her and keep her from harm. Deliver them from evil and as Deb prayed lashing tongues & roots that go down deep. We bind the enemy that is robbing this home from Your joy and we release Your love & grace!
I love you Debra...I'm praying even through my tears, I will continue to uphold you in prayer. Please know you can come to me or better yet Jesus to be wrapped in His love. I did not even listen to the song...but "I surrender all" should be what someone else should be singing...may Jesus shelter you!
I do love your new blog look though I know how trivial that must seem right now...remember you are clothed with scarlet!
WOW...I did listen to the song, I knew I needed to hear this version by Newsboys! Really love it. Great choice! Now on to surrendering!
It's later today and I wanted to write again and let you know that you are still on my heart. I'm here for you and your family...as you and yours were there for mine.
Seeking only HIS comfort to wrap around you and make you feel safe, secure and loved!
Thinking of you and still praying for you tonight, Debra.
Debbie...Please know how sorry I am for what has happened. You will ALL be in my prayers.
I'm keeping you in prayer sweet thing. I am so sorry for what you are all going through.
Debra....As I write this I am at a loss for words...I can't even imagine...please know that you & your family will be on my heart and in my prayers. ((hugs)) Stacey
Oh Debbie. Words fail me. I pray you will feel God's love surrounding you as you walk through this season.
I am so sorry. I pray God will guide you in each decision and that your husband will find healing and deliverance. Satan loves to kill and destroy. I pray your husband will completely repent and allow God to set him free from adultery and all that comes with it.
God bless your children as well.
I will be praying for you and all involved dear Debbie.
Love you,
Beth
I am soo sad to hear this news. Just about a year ago today our friend Bug came to the same understanding of her husband's infidelity. I will do my best to help you through.
I am so proud of you for your strength and love during such a horrible time. It takes a strong woman of faith to pray for and love those who have hurt her. I know you will come through this fire stronger in your faith and love. I read the words of your friends and family who are praying for and with you and there is no doubt.
Allow yourself to grieve be angry when you need to but always give it to God. Talk to someone who will help you heal w/o judgement. Seek God's guideance above all first. I am with you and praying.
Deb...My heart is wide open with pain for reading this news. Frizzy sent me an email today and I started to cry. I am so sorry to read these words from you. As Frizzy wrote, 1 year ago this coming Thursday I learned of my ex-husband's infidelity. Even through your pain, I see your strength. I will be praying for you and your children. This is such a difficult time. Please know that you can contact me anytime. Either at huzkerfan.blogspot.com or personally via email.
Your strength comes through in all your writing. You are an amazing woman that I look up too you for your strength and belief in our wonder creator! He will guide and protect you in the coming days, weeks, months, and years.
Thinking of you all!
Oh, Debbie! I am so sorry. I just stopped by to see how you were doing and found this painful, honest, gut wrenching post that was still full of the love of Jesus inspite of it all. I can't imagine how difficult this was to post but I do know your pain. I have been there and it cuts like a knife. I admire your strength even when you are so tired, weak and weary. I admire your prayers over the other women and their families...that is Jesus in you and not human nature. You have always amazed me, inspired me and encouraged me. I find strength and inspiration even in the midst of your great pain.
I will be praying for you, sweet friend! I love you and my heart is breaking for you. I am praying that Jesus will comfort, lead, guide and speak through you to your children and their father/your husband.
If there is anything that I can do...I have a good ear that listens and a heart that loves you.
All I can do is pray and I will.
I love you, Debbie and your family.
(((HUGS)))
I was heading up to bed and God prompted me to visit tonight. I'm so glad I listened. Debra my heart breaks reading this news.
Know that I am here praying for you and your family. Praying for the lost and broken to come to the ONLY ONE who can heal the places deep inside of them.
Praying for your children!
Praying for Joshua as he goes off to train for the army!
Praying for God's comfort to be your strength as you walk through this valley.
Sending hugs and love!
Jill
I just stopped by and saw this. It is heartbreaking, but the beauty of the Lord shines through you. I have no other words except that I will be praying for you and your family.
Oh Debra, I'm so terribly sorry! I know you're heart is broken on every front.
I'm just now seeing this. I've not been blog visiting for a couple of weeks due to ministry deadlines and constraints.
The Enemy is attacking our marriages and families with a vengeance. I just can't get over how many women I've heard from in the past 2 months about infidelity.
Please know I am covering you in prayer, and your children, and your beloved...and all those who are being affected by this.
On Wednesday, over @ Exemplify, my marriage Q & A post is coming up. Of all things, it's called "Rebuilding After Betrayal and Sex Addiction." I think you could write the book on this one, I could learn from you.
I'm asking the Lord to fill you with great peace, wisdom and hope.
You are loved dear one.
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